Tuesday, July 25, 2006



I've somehow decided like this is the only photo that i am going to put on my blog for the unit's barbeque, indeed it was a fun and memorable time spent. Ok, its approximately about 13 days to AP, I don't know what i'll do when i pass out lah, maybe find more opportunities to venture into tourism???? We shall see about that... Hence, I find it fit to reflect on my past experiences in SJAB for the next few post, seriously i cannot bear to see the clock ticking that fast, I wonder when was the last time that saying goodbye was that hard. I've already gotten use to my life as a member in SJI-SJAB, its very hard to change that and adapt to something that would be eventually be missing in the future.

Indeed, there has been many ups and downs during my time, but nevertheless the journey has been fun, fulfilling and enriching and it provides me with an esape from my hectic life in my class. Competition has been utterly fulfilling and enriching, CPBS memorable and impactful, Cadet life abit better then nco life, Skills learnt which would last a lifetime and most importantly friendship that would last forever.

I would still have my so called "memories" book to fill over the next 2 weeks for the part on SJAB, juz to share this book which i got from mediacorp was adapted and made into somesort of a book where i store all all the details of the most memorable and impactful memories of my life, i realise last year that I should not wait until i must say "shit why never keep anything or take any photos for memory sake", therefore i have been keeping and taking photos of all the significant events in upper sec. life, just snapping away...lolz... so far let me recall only about 6 people have signed in my book.

I cannot think of anything that I can blog about now, so when i do i do....hahaz..bb....

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Friday, July 21, 2006

Time flies, it really flies it'll be AP in about 3 weeks and my long three and a half years of memebership to sji-sjab would soon come to an end, also everything that I have to do in SJI would come to ened in about 5 months time, this is one time that i really want time to slow down and take a break.

Alot of things have really happened, I don't know what is happening around after I was awarded the Best NCO award, don't know whther my squad seriously approves of it or are actually talking behind my back, i often get the occassional remarks of "A... best sec 4" and "u best sec 4 izzit" and much more which should not be put here you people shld know why.... This was not what i expected after i was awarded the award, all the attention and everything, I believe success is somehow not the destination but it is the journey (that's why you would not find me in school talking about how great i am to have won the award), this would all put more pressure on me to express and show everyone that I am the Best NCO....

I'm just glad that everything turned out find eventually, i did not disappoint anybody in my works in the past one year, whether it is comp. team stuff or CPBS i performed to the best of my ability and give everything ounce of effort i have to strive for the best cos that's one thing I believe in. I'm glad that I live up to predeccessor's expectations of me and i must thank him for all his efforts...^^ It is always better to see your juniors, the people whom you put the the utmost effort to groom achieve much more and outdo yourself, the sense of satisfaction is indeed much greater. I hope I can achieve this feeling too, which would indeed be much better then my win this year...

Reading Ronney's blog and his reflection on holding the drill cane :

well, this is my opinion, my thoughts. its literally heavy, the drill cane, this, to me, plays a vital role by reminding me, of my duty and responsiblity i have committed to by carrying it. as for its 'sacred' tradition, the drill cane deserves the utmost respect for me, having seen through all the hard work by other csm-s, it carrries the sweat and blood they've given to sji-sjabthat in my opinion, is the reason for traditions, they have its meaning, for you to reflect on

Honestly, although ronn is younger then me by a year, i already learnt alot of things from him and seriously he deserves much of my respect, Team and Squad Scorpio you people have a great person to lead you people through all the challenges ahead so treasure him.... It's the first time I see a csm reflecting so much on his position and I can see the huge amount of energy in him that is wanting to be expressed out to serve SJI-SJAB to his fullest, I believe he can do it and he would do it! Jia Youzzzz..... just don't stress yourself out to much..... Taking charge of scorpio for the past 1 year, I feel that they have a huge amount of potentital to excel in sji-sjab, although there are some who are less serious at times but they can be of great help to.

There is like so much things I want to say like to the people that belongs to my department, team scorpio, squad scorpio, my pre-decessors, so I'll try to find more time to express them out, cause you people would know I don't like to keep them in myself, let it all out, wdv....... hehez.....

Finally, reading Roy's blog and judging by the way how things are going on and if this feeling carries on, I know i would eventually break down on AP day, it's never good to say goodbye. I seriously am not a person who would break down easily and cry when it's goodbye time, unless something is really important and close to me (but if i would, i would try not to do it openly of course, after all these years I learn to always try to carry a smile on my face, no matter how i feel, that would leave a good impression of me on others....), seriously i think this would be my first time ever, considering the other time it happened is when i was in primary 2, lolz...

K, i think it's enough reflection for today, I shall continue next time, it's getting late now time 12.04 AM, so Happy Birthday Ronn!!!! BB....

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Saturday, July 15, 2006

Another long absence from this blog, I just do not have time to just type these words into my computer considering the workload i have now, just next week alone i can look forward to 5 tests and I have and must pass all of them, if not what's coming my way more stress!!!!!!

The past week is not good at all, started of with one bad National Comp., it has been one week, though I have almost gotten over it, i still feel painful that we lost so badly and this is our last comp. some more, I've expected much better from us, some mistakes should not be made at all, I've seriously never lost so badly in any competition at all! What disappoints me more is the looks and attitude of my team members after the comp., i juz want to forget them as fast as i can.

Considering the bad start to the work, I almost screwed my O-level oral the nxt day, but managed to save it by just a bit i think, seriously there's nothing i can do about it now but just pray, yah just pray and more mock papers and work to add to my work load, haizzz people just watch how i handle my time..... *wondering*

I don't know what to blog about already... seriously, so now back to my studies....

byezzz^^^^

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Thursday, July 06, 2006

Expectations.... it's seriously taking a toll on me, remember the day before i was talking to Mdm Thor, I could still remember her last sentence vividly, "Kao Ge Yi Hui Lai Ge Wo Kan, Wo Xiang Xin Ni Neng Zuo De Dao...", it still appears in my mind now and then. This are some of the many examples that i can name, i sometimes feel that if i end up not achieving any expectations that are made and placed on me and myself, i may just end up feeling disappointed, disappointed i did not work enough to achieve what i want, seriously, ahhhhh!!!!!

The past week have just been havoc, tons of homework, especially for maths which i totally suck at, the non-stop flow of mock papers wk by wk, the weekly tests which is driving me nuts, the tons of work that i want to complete for my department before i pass out, start studying for Prelims which i haven find the time to etc. I try to find time to fit in everything but i'll end up falling asleep thanks to lethargicness and have no time to complete everything.....

This week is nat. comp week, everyone's talking about it, maybe not everyone (it somehow seems quieter this year), hope that both teams can meet their goals and objectives, Team Scorpio- this is the last comp. that i would see them through as an NCO, training them for about year now, everything that they learnt would be put to the test on Sunday and I hope that they can pass it with flying colours and achieve what they ought to achieve, everytime i see them go on stage i would be like so happy for them, so jia youzzz Scorpio. Team Taurus- wdv, i dont know whther they would stumble onto this, but i actually have only one and only one hope for ourselves, end our comp journey with a bang, we started with one by sweeping everything at zone comp 2004, I hope that we would once again end with a bang at nat. comp. 2006.

AP's coming, we just had our first AP rehersal today, it made me imagine what it would be like on the day of AP itself, honestly i have mixed feelings about AP 2006, sometimes i feel very tired, very tired of being in squad taurus the craziness and everything is driving me nuts i just cannot adapt and just one AP to come quickly so i can end everything, but on the other hand, AP 2006 means having to leave my fav. and beloved dept. CPBS, when i first join it last year, i thought it would be another journey through, but on the other hand my love and interest for it grew and seriously now i am willing to do anything for the department to enable it to stand out in SJI-SJAB. This feeling somehow made me remember the question ronn posed to me "Why do you like going overseas to holiday and sightsee and learn new things so much?" my answer at that time was "to get rid of all worries and leave behind everything and to have fun, just to have fun", at that time i didn't realise i was actually like avoiding things until he alerted me to it, hence AP 2006 good thing?bad thing?... i seriously have no idea.....

Finally, i have to say this out, groan and moan about this, XIANGYANG MARKET IN SHANGHAI HAS CLOSED DOWN ON 1 JULY2006, i was like wth, how can the chinese government close down a market that allows tourists to have tons of fun bargaining and crapping with the shopkeepers, among the 2 times i went to Shanghai, visited it a total of 5 times during the 2 trips and indeed interesting things happen. I remember i got scolded for insisting that i pay only 10 yuan for a 90 yuan hat which the shopkeeper would not want to decrease further, seeing a russian woman i think quarreling with a male shopkeeper until want to fight like that seriously an interesting sight, had some great bargains, bought a 300 over yuan shoe for 90-100 yuan and 200 over yuan shirt for 80-90 yuan forget about the price liao (but now i feel abit ex. lolz), got cheated too during scavenger hunt with school group could have bought the Mao's watch for 20 yuan our group bought it about 50 yuan quite ex. you know, 10 bucks is not cheap and finally, seeing the power of bargaining for the frst time. To sum it all up, it was just FUN, FUN and MORE FUN, BARGAINING, now no more such fun in shanghai liao, if you want must go BEijing Xiu Shui Jie same as XiangYAng but don't know one day whether they would close it down. quite interested to know about all these, shall ask my shanghai dao you someday, *awaits*....

The background song is actually from "Wu Chu Cai Hong" sang by SHI XIN HUI, it has become one of my favourites since, listen to the lyrics carefully, it is actually a song to motivate someone to carry on despite of any troubles and failures.....

"suo you de zhang sheng ge wo li liang, meng xiang de cai hong jiu zai qian fang"

____________&{ memories within here.