Friday, July 21, 2006

Time flies, it really flies it'll be AP in about 3 weeks and my long three and a half years of memebership to sji-sjab would soon come to an end, also everything that I have to do in SJI would come to ened in about 5 months time, this is one time that i really want time to slow down and take a break.

Alot of things have really happened, I don't know what is happening around after I was awarded the Best NCO award, don't know whther my squad seriously approves of it or are actually talking behind my back, i often get the occassional remarks of "A... best sec 4" and "u best sec 4 izzit" and much more which should not be put here you people shld know why.... This was not what i expected after i was awarded the award, all the attention and everything, I believe success is somehow not the destination but it is the journey (that's why you would not find me in school talking about how great i am to have won the award), this would all put more pressure on me to express and show everyone that I am the Best NCO....

I'm just glad that everything turned out find eventually, i did not disappoint anybody in my works in the past one year, whether it is comp. team stuff or CPBS i performed to the best of my ability and give everything ounce of effort i have to strive for the best cos that's one thing I believe in. I'm glad that I live up to predeccessor's expectations of me and i must thank him for all his efforts...^^ It is always better to see your juniors, the people whom you put the the utmost effort to groom achieve much more and outdo yourself, the sense of satisfaction is indeed much greater. I hope I can achieve this feeling too, which would indeed be much better then my win this year...

Reading Ronney's blog and his reflection on holding the drill cane :

well, this is my opinion, my thoughts. its literally heavy, the drill cane, this, to me, plays a vital role by reminding me, of my duty and responsiblity i have committed to by carrying it. as for its 'sacred' tradition, the drill cane deserves the utmost respect for me, having seen through all the hard work by other csm-s, it carrries the sweat and blood they've given to sji-sjabthat in my opinion, is the reason for traditions, they have its meaning, for you to reflect on

Honestly, although ronn is younger then me by a year, i already learnt alot of things from him and seriously he deserves much of my respect, Team and Squad Scorpio you people have a great person to lead you people through all the challenges ahead so treasure him.... It's the first time I see a csm reflecting so much on his position and I can see the huge amount of energy in him that is wanting to be expressed out to serve SJI-SJAB to his fullest, I believe he can do it and he would do it! Jia Youzzzz..... just don't stress yourself out to much..... Taking charge of scorpio for the past 1 year, I feel that they have a huge amount of potentital to excel in sji-sjab, although there are some who are less serious at times but they can be of great help to.

There is like so much things I want to say like to the people that belongs to my department, team scorpio, squad scorpio, my pre-decessors, so I'll try to find more time to express them out, cause you people would know I don't like to keep them in myself, let it all out, wdv....... hehez.....

Finally, reading Roy's blog and judging by the way how things are going on and if this feeling carries on, I know i would eventually break down on AP day, it's never good to say goodbye. I seriously am not a person who would break down easily and cry when it's goodbye time, unless something is really important and close to me (but if i would, i would try not to do it openly of course, after all these years I learn to always try to carry a smile on my face, no matter how i feel, that would leave a good impression of me on others....), seriously i think this would be my first time ever, considering the other time it happened is when i was in primary 2, lolz...

K, i think it's enough reflection for today, I shall continue next time, it's getting late now time 12.04 AM, so Happy Birthday Ronn!!!! BB....

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