Thursday, August 31, 2006

I just cannot understand anything, why do youngsters today stirup something for nothing, i just cannot understand, why can't they settle for a simple resolution and must complicate matters. Now i can truly understand the meaning of how SJI guys are truly fine young gentlemen, it was just so complicated.

Anywayzzz... went back to SMS today (unsure why kevin lee had that last minute change of mind not to go back, lolz...), was expecting a simple visit to revisit my old memories which i did but it was not only impactful but also one of "another kind", all my teachers remembered me contrary to what others say of teachers forgetting me as many others have experienced, see the impact you can make in other people's lives even for teachers, surprisingly i am the only few who still have alot of teachers that i know still teaching, while the others have like only 1 or 2 left as others left school, Ms Chang(P1H), Mrs Cher(P2H), Ms Karen Tan(P4H), Mrs Collen Sheares(P5G), Mdm Ang(P6G), didn't get to see some, either they were not at their desk or left. Had very heart-warming conversations with all of them, memories.... how wonderful they are, remembering me as hardworking, helpful, responsible and a pleasure to teach, i was like chaozz flattered, somehow the motivation they gave me to strive for the best results in the upcoming prelims and O's was of another kind which i find really encouraging and told me to show them good results when i visit next year....^^

n Mdm Ang was still concerned about my maths, see wad a gd teacher represents, even if u left schl or 4 yrs already she is still motivating and pushing me on to work hard and achieve my best as what it was in primary 6, i finally realised after the conversation that all the expectations that results in stress for prelims and o's are all because the teachers have confidence in me...., how i wish i could return to the times.... n Mdm Gao, first question she would have asked "Ni O shui jun kao shi kao duo shao", still concerned about us..... she is one teacher who never ever i can tell you that forgets her student she remembers every single one of us still.....the teachers still care about us after all this years, they love, care and concern is like unreplaceable and i truly appreciate that, that's wat makes sms so special... (the impact that teachers make in their students' lives... unforgettable....haizzz...)
THX anywaysszzz, for all your encouragement, i would never forget anyone of you...^^

Then met up with some frenz in schl, it was raining chaozzz heavily so didnt wanna leave, until the drama occured, do not want to go into the details as I utterly find the other group childish, the whole group of us was helping to try to help my friend solve this conflict peacefully but they just refused...and u noe wat..... all these happened in the school compounds.... i just did not want to bother about it as i found it utterly stupid of how this conflict about my friend with this other group started.... forget about it, this visit bak to sms was truly memorable in all sorts of ways...

By the way I have another set of photos for AP, gotten from camillus, i think some photos are nicer but overall it was still not as "enriching" as my photos... Here are some of the nicer ones..














Prelims... the dreaded exams are finally here... mugging stresses and tires everyone out, seriously im like mugging chao hard now.......but dont noe which jc i wanna go to for the first 3 months, we'll see as it goes, but i do not wanna see a C in my report card this time.....Expectations..haizz...the dreaded wordd....lolz....after that graduation would come, all the memories that i collected and kept over the years, all the quotes and motivation words i received from all the people who had crossed my path... haizzz... time really flies...it really flies........ n my completed memory collage!!!! yeah i can finally complete it le...!!!! ^^^^^^^^ For now wish me luck... bak to mugging....

Finally, I have to say yes... i finally, blogged for after such a long time, i could take time out to blog...hehezz.... my record so far about 3 weeks...lolz.....n I think it would not improve over the weeks as the anxiety and stress builds up. Haizzz, wish me luck people, so i can smile when i see you again....^^

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Thursday, August 10, 2006

AP 2006, what a very memorable day, another moment that I would never forget for the rest of my life, I had the privilege of marching as 2nd contingent commander and i am indeed very glad to do that, I think that my unrehearsed performance was way much better than I expected and I indeed ended my SJI-SJAB experience with a bang. A superb CPBS handing over at POP, I am sure Matt and Kev will continue the legacy of the CPBS department, then comes AP prize presentation, its the first time that i received such an important prize infront of the audience for my achievements in my CCA, and the role as 2nd contingent commander, all these certainly closes this chapter of my secondary school life perfectly and i seriously now need not leave any room for regrets.

Thanks everyone for supporting me throughout the AP, I was indeed quite nervous due to my unrehearsed performance at AP, I serioulsy only practised with Marcus only, lolz, I was scared I will screw up lolz, but in the end it was way much better then I expected

I will upload the photos once I go ask around for more different types of photos first, Brendan, Camillus etc. The photos that I have are very limited so be patient people, come back maybe next Monday to view the photos k ???^^^^

"I knew that this was my last time I can do something for SJI-SJAB so I decided to end it with a bang."

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Sunday, August 06, 2006

Just sharing this with you people, this what do I call it???? collage??? contains fond memories of my secondary school life whether school or not but it lacks one thing the St. John essence, omg, do i sound chim, hopefully on AP day, i can have a nice photo to complete this puzzle, whthere izzit with CPBS (hopefully it is), with Team Scorpio, Team Taurus, my Best NCO trophy or whatever it is..... I am going to put it up again when I am going to graduate from sji again, then it would be complete and maybe more pics can be added....!!!!!

This is probably gonna be my last post before I pass out on tuesday, omg, getting emo...lolz.... unless i squeeze out some ridiculous amount of time which i think i cannot afford to, to blog....lolz. I have to say it again, time flies, it really flies, AP is in about 2 days and i still cannot get over the fact that i am passing out...haizzzz... What should I say...hmmmm......

This experience have certainly been fulfilling and fruitful, I am now so glad i did not go and join some other crappy CCA in the past, if not I would not have been able to experince what I had experienced. In the past, the NCOs said that the friendship you make through St. John would certainly be stronger and much more treasured than the friends you make in class, I didn't believe him at that time as I had a very strong sense of belonging to my class 208. Its not until this time last year when i felt that time began to pass faster and started to treasure the times more, and one thing that I always set myself to from primary school years is to make an impact in the life's of others, no matter the other person is older or younger than me, you can rest assured whatever i say and do over the past is totally myself, wo de ming zi shi zhong jiao guan huai!!!!

Over the years, the first-aid skills learnt are certainly very precious to me from today onwards, I don't believe joining other CCA's can give you such fulfillment and skills to help others when in need. Its always nice when people say a word of Thanks after you administer treatment for them, it certainly spurs me on to help others more when in need and the sense of satisfaction of helping people is hardly felt in normal times.

Also, i somehow learnt how to deal with problematic colleagues in the future already, the past year certainly had been tiring and troublesome, meetings hmmm can I even classify them as meetings???? Anyways, my experience in Taurus is actually much memorable when we were cadets, the times when we had nothing to worry about and just have to go through what the NCOs planned for us, no stress, no quarrells and no nothing how nice, everything has since changed and haizzzz.....nth much to say....

The team, I think I can say we have made a impact in other people in may ways, good and bad. The outside certainly does not match our inside, problems after problems just pops up leaving evrything for us to solve, but neverthless I think we still pulled through, way much better then I expected it to be and I can certainly say, that comp was indeed memorable and fruitful...... At least i can say something at that moment when Nicholas replaced Hubert with me for comp, that I certainly did not make the wrong decision and choice, 5th man then 4th..... i've almost tried everything, commanding, timing, thrid man, fourth man, tried before.........
Zone Comp 2004: AC2
Nat. Comp 2005: AC 10
Zone Comp 2005: AA1
Zone Comp 2006: AA1
Nat. Comp 2006: AA5

Squad Scorpio, I seriously don't know what to say to you people, but I can see that you people have certainly growm over the past year, from Sec2's to Sec3's.....lolz..... what should i say... all i can say is treasure your riegn and do your best for the unit, treasure your times as you would find that your term as NCOs is actually very very very short.

Team Scorpio, it certainly has been a pleasure training you people in the past year, I got to know your team way much much much better, now I understand the feeling of Roy when he always say I miss this and I miss that, and all those things about strong feelings, you people have certainly changed whether in your skills or your character, I certainly can feel it, also the effort and time that all of you dedicate towards comp. is omg, totally uncomparable to other teams, I have to say that, that's why it spurs me on to do the best I can for you people. Indeed, I have witnessed the very importance of teamwork and a well bonded group in whatever we do, never ever once have i ever seen a team or even a group so close and well-bonded before, seriously i am not joking. Training your team has certainly brought my St. John experience to another level, I hope to see you achieve the highest and the best of whatever you can achieve, I would certainly feel happy for you people, do a clean sweep at next year's zone comp okay???? All I have to say in the end is no matter what don't stress yourselves out so much and don't feel down when you lose, pick yourselves up and move on, as this is how i see it you people are already winners, I always say you win not because of the result you get but because of the EXPERIENCE and the MEMORIES that you would receive...... ^^ Wishing you people all the best, and if you need my help, i always available for you people ^^.......

Finally, the experience, memories and hard work that I cannot bear to leave behind, my department, CPBS, indeed my target working as a CPBS NCO have certainly changed from the start, from just wanting to get the Best NCO trophy, to really and wanting to help the unit in whatever ways whether is it CPBS or not till the feeling of the importance of the trophy have certainly disappeared. Basically, CPBS is a way for me to take a rest from the crazy squad going ons which always pisses me off and calm me down, at least I know I have something to do in SJI-SJAB while taking a breather from the crazzinesss of Taurus which i am totally tired of now (K don wan to get into that angry mood...calming down), at least I am happy that I got to share ths exp. with ZY (finally I brought myself to say that, JOKING!!!!), maybe the only thing he does well is to calm me down in those crazy times and make me refocus on my work, on second thought I may be correct, that may be the thing he only does well.....lolzzzz....wdv.... back to topic..... At least I received something fruitful and memorable out of my SJI-SJAB experience, I am glad and satisfied with my performance eventually, i did not let anybody down or disappoint anyone and most importantly I did not let myself down, its like a burden have just been lifted off me. To my successors, Matt and Kev, you have certainly proven that you are the best in you squad and i am utmost certain that you truly deserve my post, I fully and totally believe that you would put in your utmost effort into continuing the success of CPBS and maybe even lifting it to greater heights, just put in your best effort and never leave any room for regrets at the end of the day, remember never stress yourselves out too much as always take note the secret receipe for success: relax!!!!!!..........

Looking back into the past on why I joined and my interest in it, it had certainly changed, it has changed into something which is totally different from the past, thats why i wonder, i wonder what i am going to do when i passed out, its not as if there is some activity for tourism every holz u noe, haiz i am seriously going to miss life in SJI-SJAB, as I bring this post to a close, I have to say SJI-SJAB played a huge role in my life in secondary school, there were many ups and downs as I experienced it, many new people I met and come across, the close friends that i had made, many things that I learnt and discovered in myself, last but not least the memories, the memories that would last me a lifetime, no matter where i am headed in the future I will always remember this time, this time when I was a member of SJI-SJAB.......omg, i m surely going to shed some tears on AP day........ "this time i could not put a smile on my face"

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Tuesday, August 01, 2006

It draws nearer and nearer, the very day AP, i'll shall save all the reflections for now, don't want to get to emo. as i still want to study. Everything's been really depressing, prelim orals it was certainly a disaster to me, now i must work doubly hard to secure a good grade for english, why couldn't i just get one or two marks more to satisfy myself, haizzzzz... For now, i'm determined to mugg mugg and mugg and do it doubly hard after AP, and work towards my target, which is still unknown...lolz..... JC and Poly, hard choice hmm~~~~~

Lately, this whole best nco thing is coming back again, people starting to say and say that i stole someone's trophy again which i seriously can't stand anymore, although it doesn't show on my face, honestly the only word of congratz from my squadmates only came from surprisingly Shawn Chang, while all the others just erm hemmm yah, i think you get what I mean. Why do I somehow feel that they really mean what they are saying but wth, i think is should stop thinking about this.

Not knowing why, the latest hot conversation that we have is memories even all the way back to primary 1, I find it seriously, *some feeling which i don't know how to express.... wen xin, heart warming???? that we still get together to somehow talk about things that happen all the way back to primary 1, over the years many things have changed but our memories would always stay with us together, the caring teachers, the wonderful and havoc classess and the different type of personalities that we come across through the years...awwww.....

Ok, I think that's all for today, i shall carry on another time, maybe during the weekend but definitely at least once more before AP, to sum up everything in that i've experienced in St. John, this is not as easy as uttering the words and letters b~y~e..... u noe, it is more than that, rounding up and reflecting and recollecting the memories that would be stored in you forever, i'll treasure this last week when i am still officially the CPBS NCO...haizzz..... gdbye..... Au Revoir....

____________&{ memories within here.